~wAt i'm tiNkINg nOw~

so sad....so hapi...

2004-08-17T11:41:00.000+08:00

Hm...dAyS reali flies...hOrNg YiH wEnT bAcK tO cHiNa le...cYa NeXt yR !!!TaKe lotxXx Of cArE WoRz...Since He CaMe baCk...We WeNt OuT 2 TimEs Oni LehZz...But BoTh DaYs WeRe FuN...EvEryOne WaS EnJoYing...Got mE, AiWeN, KeN, DeRek, LiBin, Hui mIn aNd hiM...Tts RealI fUn...buT If MoRe pPl LyK JoRene N GerMaine CaN Join Us wIll Be EvEn Better...HaiZ...MisSs KemIng sOoo Much...Muz gO bacK DuRing TeAchErS' DaY...It's A mUZ...HeHee..sumtimes i TiNk..Y Can I bE SoOo HaPi WhEn I'm wiF KeN They AlL, CaiYi They AlL...But nOt ThEm...HaIzzZX...It'S Fated, I tInk...If nOt fAtEd y CAnT I BE hApI wHEn i'M wIf tHEm LeHzZ...??!!??!!aIyA wAtEvEr lA...i CaN pUt dOWn eVeRyTiNg WhIcH cONcErNS tHEM...oNI 1 tING...kOr tAT TiNg LoHxX....hAiZ...fORgEt iT......nVM.....

NiCe!Bad?

2004-08-06T15:49:00.000+08:00

Today sch national day celebration...hehe...sprain my back!!!omg...haiz...but overall was nice oso...many ppl oso say very nice...hehe...next sat performing the same dance again!!!but wif sum more sec 1 gers...hehe...today so hapi....but dunno will hapi whole day anot...i hope so...haiz...sum times when i saw them together reali make me jealous and sad sia....i used to be so good wif him...den when he became better wif her den hack care me...i hate her sia..hate her alot...though i noe hate sum one very tired one...haiz...dunno wat to do sia....now me n boon n dd better le...they dun seems to dislyk me lyk tt time when i started quarrel wif the gers...now dd n boon ok liao...but noe zx...haiz....nvm...i'll wait...maybe...MAYBE he will lyk boon n dd lyk tt....hope so...but now lyk tt...i feel very unesy...sad de shi hou cannot find kor chat...un hapi time cannot tell me...hapi cannot share wif me...no more now...he so good wif her...haiz...

Haiz...OmG

2004-07-23T19:28:00.000+08:00

Haiz...Y, i reali dun understand why tings will end up lyk tt...saded...but reali, i'm reali very tired of the way i'm being treated by them....those who can treat me in such ways.....i mean...y they could be so mean???wat acceleration??wat acc....wat anti celeste club????how would they feel if someone form such clubs about them???how would they feel???i reali can't stand it ani more!!!!!!!!!!!!no more...it's enuff!!!though now very xin suan...bout at least better den the days with them!!!!!!!!!!!not so left out!!!i dun care if ani one of them noe abt wat i wrote in my blog....if they wanna noe...let them noe la...at least i dun do tings behind them lyk wat meihui did...not hapi say la...no need to diao me behind me when she not hapi de lohx...i'm not scare....those hu read my blog, if u wanna let meihui noe...go ahead...at least i say out how i feel...not lyk them...not hapi with me...dun lyk me...den gif me attitude...gif lohx...i had enuff of all these rubbish...enuff is enuff...i'm too tired to bare wif all these...their not the oni grp of frenz i hav....since they oni take note abt my bad points, nvm...they dun appreciate wat, wat can i do????reali...there no such needs to use pple around me to make me jealous of angry de...i noe wat they r doing...i can c...if they tink using others hu r not in these conflict is good...let them be...no use de...no need to act as if u all very close wif ph or ah peh de...no use de...go ahead and do wat u tinkwon't hurt others hu u all r using to make me angry...u gers may make me very sad or unhapi...but plz tink of the 'others' feeling....wat if they themselves are being used by other???or they are being treated the WAY the treat me....how would they feel???or maybe is i tink too much that wat they are doing now, but i dun care....i can feel tt they are the ones who are making some frenz of mine leaving me....enuff....too much...too tired....if i got attitude...their attitude very good mehz...i reali dunno wat will i do when i cant stand it ani more....No matter wat happen...i swear i'll never go with them ANYMORE!!!!!!!!!no MORE...NO....i reali dunno if lian dd n korkor they all oso lyk them...dun lyk me...cuz they hardly tok to me after the conflict...i reali dunno....forget it...too tired to tink too much abt all these....cant stand it ani more....

My hair!!!

2004-07-10T23:53:00.000+08:00

OMG!!!my hair!!!hehe...i juz got my hair perm....ceremic perm...look abit too curly and abit too auntie for me le...but dun lyk oso no choice...bu perm dou perm le...actually oso not bad de...maybe me used to hav straight hair le...so not used to tis perm hair...but my sis say look abit lyk those gers in the early daes who dacne ah go go when i tie my hair up...so nvm lohx...but look abit funny lyk tt...scare later ppl c le will laugh...siao liao...some more wif my stupid fringe....dotz...-_-"..hehe....

haiz....

2004-07-09T12:00:00.000+08:00

haiz...nth changed...reali...reali very tired of every ting...i juz need them to treat me lyk their fren...not a stranger....they oni cums to me when they need...when they dun need...i'm juz extra to dem....dun wish to say too much....dun wish to be someone hu keeps complaining....i'm juz too tired....reali need some rest...i shld shift all my attention to studies and dance oni...they dun appreciate my care of concern.....

Hiya!!!!i'M bac!!cong chu jiang hu....haha...juz joking...

2004-06-30T18:06:00.000+08:00

So much ting happen recently....bad....1 -->i'm sick...omg!!!one week le still can't recover...hehe of cuz la...i nv go c doc ma...hehe...=p...2 --> m i transparent????is not tt i oways wanna complain....is juz tt i'm TOO left out....i cant stand...las time wif hui oso not worst den tis....wat can i do???i wish they would realize lohx...but the ting is tt i dun tink they even care...they feel alrite without me ard...but they will feel uneasy without one of them...but not me...i mean...i feel tt friends shld compromise wif each other lohx...not oni i agree wif them...but at least sometimes tink for me lohx or agree with me....none of them care when i'm sick...but they care for themselves and the rest not me...i'm reali quite tired of tt....the way i'm being treated...is lyk i'm being dump into the bin....let's say tt day musical...A saw me alone sittinng at the corner very upset and she can juz walk away w/out asking!!!and today we was toking abt a grp work...and B juz say wo men si ge...pointing at the 4 of them when i'm beside one of them!!!infront of me!!!m i reali transparent???sometimes they say yi shi wang ji wo i still can accept...but is everytime lohx and the ting is tt they dun forget the rest of them de......frenz???is tis wat a fren shld do???i'm UNWANTED by them!!!sometimes i reali tink loh....y do i oways hav so so much problems in life???my frenz r treating me lyk shiit...my family treat me lyk bustard....my studies can't work out....omg....reali feel lyk crying....reali lohx...if they reali dun lyk me and doesn't wan me in the grp can tell me de lohx...at least i won't pester them lohx...

OOppzz...Ms zan's wedding day!!!

2004-06-05T22:39:00.000+08:00

OoPzz.....today is ms zan's wedding!!!!-=*best wishes to ms zan!=-no no not ms zan ani more....is mdm zan...hehe....aniwae...is a tiring dae too.!!!cuz ytd went out den today again....and leg pain sia...wif the "shoe"...Omg....but nvm...cuz i bought a new pair of shoe!these 2 daes reali spent so much money man!!!almost 70 i tink...OMG!!!and the chalet!!!hoping for tt dae...but everybody lyk lag lag lyk tt...lyk not reali wanna go lyk tt....haiz....forget it....but still hope tt the chalet daes could b fun as well...cuz we all can stay together...hehe....musical cuming too....hope we won't mess it up!haiz...now very tired sia...leg very pain...stomach too...haiz...ok le...me gonna end here...cuz gonna eat!eat the big pot of stuff...omg...hehe...=)

How i feel rite now...

2004-05-29T21:49:00.000+08:00

Haiz...after sending them...reali feel sad...i dunno how to discribe the kind of sad....tinking of the daes we had togerther reali make me sad...-=crying rite now!!!!=-omg!!!y???y i can't stand??y must i cry???i promise both of them not to cry easily le...i noe...they both left...but their xin is still in sg with us de...but theres nth we can do...plz...god...protact them...keep them away frm dangers....plz...i beg u!!!i reali look for to christmas...the day we gonna meet again..OMG!!!help!!!!!take lotzszs of care ya!!!i'm waiting for both of u bac....dun lose the xiang si dou plz...i very hard den find den keep for both of u de...n the bottle...i search fot it for so long...plz dun lose it...it contains all my wishings and bless....hope tt both of u will b smart enuff to open ur own bottle...hope u guys can c the mgs in the bottle...i'll keep the necklace and the stars nicely de...i won't lose dem de...thanks alot for the necklace...the stars...and the chocolates....
Omg...y good tings always wun cum to me...but bad tings cum so often???sumtimes i realli feel left out...odd no. of us...the 4 of them got partners when we do pair stuff...where i'm oways alone....haiz...suan le...i shld b used to it le....haiz....nvm....
Dance is sooo great lohx...but the musical is lyk...hz...he look down so much on me...y muz gif us simple...very simple steps???we look lyk extras...mite as well the whole dance juz ask them to dance can le -= No Offence to the dancers=- ...dun put me in la...tt day he tt reali very bad...very criticize lohx...hai shi keming de musical is much much better...no 1 is extras....hiaz....
my result sux sia....although pass but oso nv pass de hen hao...7 among 40 oso not very good wat...our clz every1 oso didn't do well...hz...i hate chinese!!!all my CA result sux lohx...pull me down for my mid yr...the stupid chi pull me down den make me fail....POA is even worst Ca tt time do wrong qns...den mid yr do well oso kanna pulled down by CA...haiz....everyting is goign not smoothly lohx....BAD!!!!everyting!!!
everyting is going on so badly lately......y???

tO wilson & willy...really dun wish they 2 of u to sg 4 korea...but...there's nth i can do to ur father's final decision!!!

2004-05-26T16:39:00.000+08:00

Y???y is his father asking him to leave singapore again???at first oready say can let him stay till his o level finish but now????wat say can take his o level in korea???where got lyk tt one???true notz???his bro got problem...hav to leave sg...den he oso hav to leave????his father very the stupid sia....his one final decision make me n the 2 of them so far apart...lyk taking away my frenz lyk tt.....sob sob...still tot tt june holiday can ask him n his bro out to intro to meihui n angela they all be frenz...kaoz...spoil my plans....my friendly plan....!!!!kaoz....arrggghhhhh!!!!we reali reali dun wsh the 2 of them to leave lohx....at 1st i was still hapi tt they dun hav to leave....can stay in sg...but now....????!!!wat to tell mh n hr they all tt they can't get to noe him???tt time say he gotta leave sg....but at the end no need...tot everyting is alrite le...den now hav to leave???if i lyk tt tell them they will believe me again ma????lata they tink i gu yi dun let them noe him...but i not gu yi one ma...how????now the worst ting is tt even they wished to stay oso cannot...their father lyk bull lyk tt...insist!!!!omg!!!i can understand tt their mother bu ren xin let both of them stay in sg alone...she dun bare...but y suddenly cum out wif such decision???But wth....haiz...haiz....no choice...family is much much more important....since i can't repay him...mite as well let him leave...at least when he is there he no need to tink too much...but as a fren i reali lyk them to stay.... wilson...i hav neva call u by ur real name b4...but now...haiz...but u and willy gonna leave all of us....muz take care worz...hope tt ur father mite hav a las min changes....i really dun wish to let such good frenz leave....haiz...wil ss (wilson & willy)plz promise to cum bac sg when u guys can...den hope tt by then i could hav the time to arrange to let u guys to meet up wif my frenz....take lotxx of care!!!!miss ya!!!remember to call me or email me!!!plz...dun forget us...we'll miss u guys...plz cum bac to see us if possible....

haiz.....no choice...3 at a go....

2004-05-25T23:16:00.000+08:00

haiz....honestly....i reali actually reali miss days i had wif 'legend'...but....no choice...there's nth i can do...is oready a past...oopzz..{stomach pain again!!!!}haiz....forever lyk tt...sumtimes reali feel lyk dying out of the pain!!!...[haiz...laz time at least they treat me lyk little ger...to take care...at least better den now...felt so stranger....]haiz...time reali pass....now....nth else i hope den getting good result for my mid yr....though no need to meet parents...but lyk wat mr ang say...no need to meet parents doesn't mean result very good...haiz...sob sob....nVm....good times cums and go lyk bad tings do....stay hapi....to all!!!

NoW GooDies!!!!

2004-05-25T23:09:00.000+08:00

JuZ now tok abt bad stuff....holidays cuming muz tok abit abt hapi tings....holiday worz....= to NeoPrints!!!Fun!!!hOpe...that everyting cums out fine and nth shall go wrong for the musical!!!Chalet!!!!hehezz.....realli wish tt the chalet will be organized....*wiSh....hope that can oways go out wif frenz...especially to take NEOPRINTS!!!!!!!!neopints rox!!!

haiz.....BaD TiNgS CuM n Go....

2004-05-25T22:56:00.000+08:00

haiz....exams over le...holiday oso cuming le!!!which means musical is around the corner too!!!!omG!!!!exams or le...still hav test!!!mr ang!!!!kaozz...chem mini test tml sia....so sianzz...dun feel lyk studying....haiz...tis month!!!bad month....so many tings happen....a whlie my daddy n ..., lata sista n....haiz...n korean.....haiz....i'm sori...but i dun wish to hurt u....dun wish to hurt u deeply...val...i noe i'm stupid...i'm foolish...but i dun lyk him...wat can i do????y???y on earth there is sumting call LOVE!!!!!??????y??Tian yi nong Ren....haiz....y????saded...sob sob...haiz...hope tt everyting will b fine when holidays cum or longer den tt???when sch reopens???haiz....plz...Tian ar...stop playing around with ppl's feeling..!!!it hurts!!!hOpe lyk wat i tink...bad tings cum n go!!!go fast!!!

HmMm.....

2004-05-10T17:10:00.000+08:00

sOoO TiREd.....TmL!!!TuE!!!laSt paPEr For miD year...!!!!!~WinKzz~aFter tMl...nO morE sTressS!!!